I dislike making decisions. I always wonder if I am making the right choice, and how the choice that I make will affect me down the road. I do this with everything, from large life decisions to small, inconsequential, like where togo out on a date with Billy. I am an overanalyzer, which, is starting to make me feel like I"m very boring, and very fustrating.
I came to this realization over the weekend. The first indicator was that I overanalyzed Billy and I going out for an evening. When trying to decide what to do, I honestly sat here for 40 minutes analyzing the cost factors of both options, and how it was bad either way. I defer to Billy on most things, which drives him nuts, and, simply because I dont want to make the deicsion that may be wrong. I think this is a large part of why things with us can be so difficult....i fustrate him, and to be fair to him, i'm annoying as hell when it comes to stuff like htat. it is relatively inconsequential to me what we do, as long as I'm doing it with him. But, he wants me to make a decision, and I cant. Whats more, is I overthink things so much, and overanalyze them so much, that I am taking all of the fun and joy out of my life, and subsequently, his and Allies, and everyone around me.
Bad. Very Bad.
Then, thre are the big decisions, like this potential move to Charlotte. I have looked, analyzed, pro/con listed, cost analysis of EVERYTHING relating to this possible move. I dont even know if I'm going to get the job, and I sure as hell dont know if i'm going to takeit.
I am an overthinker. And, an overanalyzer. Can I be changed? Can i find the joy in the good things in life without analyzing them to death? Can I save my relationships by changing? (see, I'm doing it again)
Monday, March 28, 2011
Thursday, March 17, 2011
What I do....
I am a deal hunter. I do not care whether it is groceries, gas, clothes, electronics. Why am I like this? i am like this because I have expensive tastes and a paupers wallet. I want nice computers and clothes and expensive cars and jewelery, etc.
HOWEVER. Since I am trying to save for a house, I tend to not spend money on those things, or if I do, I try to find it as cheap as humanly possible. I am sharing this because of my wonderful success yesterday, and figured that I would share my winning glory with you.
so. Back in October, I was able to buy a 55" Samsung LCD HDTV with Wifi, etc, for $500 new. in . box. Deal of a century. This is normally a $3000 TV. ha. I paid 16% of normal cost. YAY ME!
Pork Loin for $1.49/lb. WIN.
Latest and greatest.... Brand new with Tags North Face jacket, in red and black. Normal Retail: 198.00. Purchased on Ebay for $42.00 plus 8.00 shipping.
More to follow. I am the ultimate deal hunter.
HOWEVER. Since I am trying to save for a house, I tend to not spend money on those things, or if I do, I try to find it as cheap as humanly possible. I am sharing this because of my wonderful success yesterday, and figured that I would share my winning glory with you.
so. Back in October, I was able to buy a 55" Samsung LCD HDTV with Wifi, etc, for $500 new. in . box. Deal of a century. This is normally a $3000 TV. ha. I paid 16% of normal cost. YAY ME!
Pork Loin for $1.49/lb. WIN.
Latest and greatest.... Brand new with Tags North Face jacket, in red and black. Normal Retail: 198.00. Purchased on Ebay for $42.00 plus 8.00 shipping.
More to follow. I am the ultimate deal hunter.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
New Jobs, Moving, and Dreams, Oh my!
Today's topic was supposed to be about goals, or so my listing of blog topics tells me, however, instead, I'm going to talk about the potential for a huge change in my, Billy's, and Allie's life.
As many of you know, I went to Charlotte about a week and a half ago. I went with my mom, and the purpose of the trip was to give her a feel, but to really also give me a realy feel of the area. The Hartford has an office in Charlotte, and that is where the majority of our commercial underwriting is (the career goal for now).
SO. in 3.5 days, I not only almost bought a condo, but I also got a very good feel of the area, and was able to get a good idea that I would be pretty happy there, as far as climate and cost.
however, when I came back, i decided that for now, I would lay low, and wait for the right time to move. IE, where there was a position for Billy to go to, even though i think that they would allow him to just move right into service. But, life is what happens while youre busy making plans.
On monday, a job was posted, for a small commercial underwriter, which has been the goal for about 2 years now. I have been stalled in my current role for underwriting, as they are looking for sales people who can underwrite, not necessarily a talented underwriter. I wanted to post for the job, but it starts in may, and the timing is not ideal. Billy, being as supportive as he is, told me to post regardless, and he and I will figure out us and Allie and financials.
So, after talking to a lot of people and looking for opinions, I posted for the job. If I get this job, and many people seem to think I will, I will mvoe to Charlotte, NC on the weekend of 05.21. Crappy Timing if you ask me. I might actually have to fly down, and fly back for the next weekend. Its Billys birthday. Unless, I can convince him to come down with me, and fly back on Memorial day. :-). That also being said, Allie will have to stay here until 4th of July weekend, so she can finish school.
So, to add further interest to this, HIG will give me 2k to relocate. I figure that can pay for a hotel for a few days, and then can pay for first months rent and some furniture. One can only hope.
So, I have a question for all of you. Would you move 750 miles away, alone, and wait for your fiance to hopefully come down later? Oh yeah, and away from your familiy too? I"m curious.
As many of you know, I went to Charlotte about a week and a half ago. I went with my mom, and the purpose of the trip was to give her a feel, but to really also give me a realy feel of the area. The Hartford has an office in Charlotte, and that is where the majority of our commercial underwriting is (the career goal for now).
SO. in 3.5 days, I not only almost bought a condo, but I also got a very good feel of the area, and was able to get a good idea that I would be pretty happy there, as far as climate and cost.
however, when I came back, i decided that for now, I would lay low, and wait for the right time to move. IE, where there was a position for Billy to go to, even though i think that they would allow him to just move right into service. But, life is what happens while youre busy making plans.
On monday, a job was posted, for a small commercial underwriter, which has been the goal for about 2 years now. I have been stalled in my current role for underwriting, as they are looking for sales people who can underwrite, not necessarily a talented underwriter. I wanted to post for the job, but it starts in may, and the timing is not ideal. Billy, being as supportive as he is, told me to post regardless, and he and I will figure out us and Allie and financials.
So, after talking to a lot of people and looking for opinions, I posted for the job. If I get this job, and many people seem to think I will, I will mvoe to Charlotte, NC on the weekend of 05.21. Crappy Timing if you ask me. I might actually have to fly down, and fly back for the next weekend. Its Billys birthday. Unless, I can convince him to come down with me, and fly back on Memorial day. :-). That also being said, Allie will have to stay here until 4th of July weekend, so she can finish school.
So, to add further interest to this, HIG will give me 2k to relocate. I figure that can pay for a hotel for a few days, and then can pay for first months rent and some furniture. One can only hope.
So, I have a question for all of you. Would you move 750 miles away, alone, and wait for your fiance to hopefully come down later? Oh yeah, and away from your familiy too? I"m curious.
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