Today 12/16/2010

Today I had lunch with my former boss and two of her friends and an agent of hers. My boss is leaving permanently on Sunday and moving to Florida. Lucky Bitch. I will still have email access to her and cell access, but she is no longer 20 minutes down 84 where I can show up with Sushi and have her be my sounding board.

My boss has been a constant in my life since I came to the Hartford. She was the one that I interviewed with for  CCSS in Southignton, and she didnt want to hire me. Why, I'll never know, but she didnt. Her boss hired me. Regardless, once he put me on her team, I have been one of her biggest champions and she mine. She has taken me from being a totally immature workaholic to only a semi-immature workaholic. I kid. I'm still immature, but I can now portray a totally professional demeanor.

Of course, it was not without its trials and errors. I more than once, in her boss' hearing told her to go F herself, and I more than once cried in her office after she told me how it was. I more than once told her that I hated her for her being so demanding and loud, and I more than once told her how much her faith has meant to me.

But, I can honestly say now, 5 years later, that she has created a work monster. I am a workaholic, always have been, but now I'm one that can be hired anywhere. Once she told me I didnt get a position because her boss didnt think that i would be able to keep my mouth shut in a meeting, and that I was a loose cannon. I still am to a certain extent, but as I proved today, i can sit quietly, without any ADD moments, and totally kick ass.
As I sit at my desk, since i"m leaving momentarily, I'm reading some of the things that she has given me and written for me...

"jenn, parting with you is not sweet sorrow. We have been together through so much. I mwill miss your support and dedication to me. I am extremely proud of you. I know that you will be very successful."

"Jenn, i wanted to remind you that I value everything that you bring,,even your ADHD. I look forward to continously kicking you in the behind to be as successful as possible"

I'm not successful by any means, but I consider myself valuable, and without her, I wouldnt be, and I certainly would not be looking down the barrel of a ginormous interview that I might actually stand a chance. And I certainly would not bewho I am today.

Even after not working for Katrina for almost 2 years, she still supports me, still listens, yells at me, and coaches me. I will be eternally grateful to her for that....and words cannot express how much I will miss her.

Favorite TV Shows

When it comes to television and music, my taste tends to run at the extremes, with a lot of variation in the middle. My favorite TV shows (past and present) are listed below. Doth not judge me by my taste....there are a few that I miss desperately from my youth, and many that are food based and home based.

NCIS
NCIS LA
CSI (Miami and NY. Not a big fan of the original)(And,I can do the Horatio glare with perfection)
Diners, Drive Ins, and Dives
Anything with Bobby Flay or Michael Symon
Chefs vs City
Hells Kitchen
Kitchen Nightmares
MasterChef
House
Yogi Bear
Keeping up with the Kardashians (i'm a sucker for these guys.)
House Hunters
Property Virgins
Property Ladder
Flip this House
TRL (the original)
Next (hilarity....only wish real life was like that)
Buffy the Vampire Slayer (love LOGO for having repeats)
Gilmore Girls
Beverly Hills 90210
Its me or the Dog
Mcgyver
walker texas Ranger
Days of our lives(10 years ago, anyway. no time to watch now)
Jersey Couture
...More to follow if i can remember.....

Something I'm afraid of....

I am a "fraidy cat. There are many things that I'm afraid of. I'm afraid of not having money, and not having a nice place to live. I'm afraid of being alone, and having no friends or family. I'm afraid of not having life the way its supposed to be. I'm afraid of not being a good mother. But, the tangible thing that I'm afraid of most is things that lurk in the dark.

Dont get me wrong. I'm not afraid of the dark. I like the dark. I like the moonlight, and I like sleeping in the dark. I do not like being outside in the dark. It scares the hell out of me. For this reason, i do not walk the dogs at night, and I do not go outside unless someone is with me. I do not take walks at night, nor do I like to go places without someone. I am even paranoid enough to check the trunk and backseat in my car when getting into it at night, for fear that someone has snuck in, and is preparing to kill me.

Laugh if you wish. I'm ok with that.

I love the dark, and all the mystery it holds. Just not when it applies to mystery attacking me. I love ghost stories, and want to go on one of those ghost hunting trips, and I probably should. It would cure me of being afraid of what goes BUMP in the night.

~Jenn :-)